Friday, 27 April 2012

Gone for not forgotten

I've had a nagging feeling for ages and I haven't been able to work out what it was. And so I filed it with the other 12 billion things that are nagging at me at the moment and left it alone. But still it persisted and I couldn't shake it no matter what I did.

Eventually I realised what it was. It was this little guy. This poor abandoned blog of mine which has been left in a state of limbo for most of the month.

That is not good and for that I apologise. Not that I believe anyone has been wringing their hands and looking up to the sky and screaming "Why?! WHY?! Why is she not posting?!" but I just don't like leaving things up in the air with no explanation.

The fact is that I've fallen a bit out of love with the blogging game for the past month. I've been crazily hectic at work (since being told I was being made redundant, I was moved to a different area of the company and have been working for a catering supplier - yeah. Don't ask. That is not what I'm qualified to do. Let's not go into it.) and with everything going on I've just felt the need to be silent. I didn't want to fill the blog up with post after post after post of moaning and whinging and I didn't really know what else to write about so I decided not to write at all. And now, after not having written for a month I don't know whether I really want to come back at all.

But I also know that I'm going through a tough time at the moment and that's probably not putting me in the best frame of mind at the moment.

And so I am officially putting the blog on hold for a while. I realise this post is about a month too late but hopefully it will put to bed one nagging feeling which will be progress for my poor frazzled brain.

I'll be back...

Monday, 2 April 2012

The only thing that makes me sit still.

I have issues with sitting still and not doing anything.

Don't get me wrong. I can sit and watch TV for 5 hours straight like the best of them, but that won't be the only thing I'm doing. I'll be tidying up or doing cross-stitch or writing an e-mail or doing all kinds of jiggery pokery. I won't just be sitting there.

I can be a bit of nightmare in cinemas because I can't just sit and watch the damn film. I know it's a good film if I've managed to sit still for about an hour. But I'll be shifting in my seat and fighting the urge to go and do something else with my time.

But there is one thing that has the ability to make me stop. Completely. And allow myself to be lost in a moment. No wriggling about, no wanting to check what time it is, no desiring the need to find some cross stitch or crochet to keep me from getting bored.
The ballet.
Yes I know. Hello my name is middle class.
I don't know what it is about it. Sometimes I haven't got a clue what the hell is going on but somehow it still makes sense. And even if it doesn't make sense, for some reason it doesn't seem to matter. I am transfixed and taken away from myself and my neverending brain, demanding that I always be "doing".
I've seen some of the big traditional ballets and when I saw that the Northen Ballet was doing a production of Beauty and the Beast I was really intrigued. With Mother's Day coming up I decided that rather than buy Mum a bunch of flowers (to join the 2 other bunches of flowers that my unimaginative siblings send) I would spend the money and get her a ticket to go to the ballet later in the month.
I wasn't sure what to expect from this production. Not least because I have a major confession to make....I don't really know the story of Beauty and the Beast. I know, I hang my head in shame. I'm pretty rubbish when it comes to fairy stories and when you couple that with my general dislike of Disney films you'll find a paucity of information about swashbuckling princes and dynamic leading ladies.
However, this ballet might be by far and away the best ballet I've ever seen. It wasn't traditional at all, and I do wonder if that might have ruffled some feathers, there were certainly some grumblings from the old couple sat behind us. It was definitely more modern, it wasn't just ballerinas up on pointe all the time, there was much more modern dancing going on. I am not in the know of what you call all the different dance genres and I'm desperately trying to conjure up some of the names of the dances that I've seen on the few episodes of So You Think You Can Dance that I've seen. I'm going to go with Contemporary I think. More of that than just straight up ballet.
And the costumes. Oh the costumes! Absolutely one hundred per cent the best costumes I've ever seen. And the same goes for the set design. Some might think those things are the unneccesary extras but believe me they made the show.
I sat there and although I did look up the story on Wikipedia at the end of the night (I'm way too cheap to buy the programme I'm afraid) it was mostly to confirm what I thought was  going on, rather than figure out what the hell everyone was on about.
The production is still touring and I urge you to go and see it if it's near you. Especially if you haven't really done the ballet before, this would be a great choice.

For more info go here.