Wednesday, 11 July 2012

Observations of the unemployed #008

I've realised I'm not done yet.

I've always been pretty vocal about the fact that I'm not a career-driven person. I've always said that if I won the lottery I'd be outta there, I wouldn't stay in work, I'd sit on my arse all day. Or if I married a very wealthy man I'd become a lady what lunches.

However now that I am sat on my arse all day it turns out it's really not what I want.

I'm not done yet.

I fell into my job by accident but it turns out that I really enjoy it and there's still so much more that I want to do. I'm not eager to reach heady heights, I'm not looking to make a packet, but I definitely don't want to stop right now.

Unfortunately, when you're in my position there comes a point where you realise that though it would be lovely to have a job I really want to do, I also need to get some money into my bank account because the £240 I'm pulling in a month through JSA doesn't cover much.

So I'm applying for the jobs that I really want, alongside the jobs that I don't really want, but will pay some bills.

I would have said, in the past, I'd be happy to do any kind of job but actually I don't really want to. I've been applying for admin/receptionist roles and they are not what I want to do. I'm not saying I'm better than that but I'm not done and once I'm in a job that means less time for me to spend looking for my ideal job.

I think I'm just scared that if I get in an admin job, I'll get stuck there. I'll be comfortable, I'll be happy just plodding along and not using my brain to its full capacity and before I know it I'll be talking about this one time when I did research. And that thought scares the bejeebus out of me.

I'm. not. done. yet.


  1. I know exactly what you mean. I luckily got some temp legal secretarial work but find it agonisingly boring and really want to work on so many other personal projects as well as put my half-way-through masters to use in a job. Feel like I am just treading water and getting bored of it. I hope that timing works in your favour.

  2. I'm in the same boat, it's difficult, isn't it? I'm looking for something to cover my bills for the time being, but they're not what I want to end up doing. I just want something so that I can stop crying tears of frustration at WH Smith's crap online application.

  3. Hang in there! I have faith it will work out eventually! xxx


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