I don't like me when I get like this, I irritate myself so my god only knows how irritating other people must find me. Instead I burrow myself away like a small bear until I'm feeling more myself. I also set a limit on my moping, there can be none of this "I'll just wait until I feel better" - like I said, I'm annoying myself at the moment, so I am allowing today to be a day of moping and then that's it, I will snap out of it and behave like a normal human being again. No point being sad, it won't change anything so why waste the energy?
So after an afternoon of slowly sinking in to a pit of despair I decided to snap out of it and make one of those vomit-inducing lists of things that are good in my life right now.
(Go and get your sick buckets now please.)
- I am loving that my little tete-a-tete flowers came into bloom while I've been out of the house since Friday night. Good job little colourful flowers.
- I am pleased that I finally learned how to use my curling tongs this week and discovered that I can look semi-decent as long as I'm willing to put in a bit of time.
- I am very pleased that I have got some awesome friends around me at the moment who can cheer me up and are happy to listen to me have a little moan. (Some people are just plain disappointing but this is a happy list so we'll pretend I didn't just say that.)
- I am grateful that Fred and Lily did their best to cheer me up last night by putting their little furry bodies all over my legs to keep me warm and cosy. Even though I did kind of need a wee.
- I am very pleased that I have The Person, who has the unenviable task of trying to deal with a weepy girlfriend over the phone, when it would be infinitely easier to do in person.
- I'm beside myself pleased that I finally paid my Career Development Loan off at the end of last year. If the worst comes to the worst, at least I won't have £180 to pay out each month. And even better, it means that I have a couple of months to save that £180 so I have a little If Worst Comes to Worst pot of money.
- I am loving my latest cross stitch project which is coming on a treat, thanks to having a couple of days off sick at the beginning of the week.
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- I'm really pleased that I don't own a house or a car or have any dependants. Most of the time it gets me down that I'm a renting bus wanker, but this is one of the situations where it's a bonus. At least I don't have mortgage payments to worry about.
- Mostly I'm grateful for this cup of tea that I'm about to drink.
Peace out.
Grr..just wrote you an uplifting comment and then the thingy died...hope this one works! Just to say it is good to focus on the positives - my friend taught me that recently. I think the cat one was a particularly good one! I had a lame Sat eve so I sympathise...hope you feel chipper soon! Thinking of u and loving the cross stitch! xxx
ReplyDeleteYep yep yep, it's all good this cheery list of yours! Love the bus wanker bit hihi
ReplyDeletesometimes you just need a mopey day just to get it out of your system
the xstich looks pretty impressive by the way!!
Sending you a cheer-up hug. Tell me to sod off if you don't want it. The cross stitch is looking epic and you're fully entitled to be miserable - you have a lot on your shoulders.Lastly. You may be a renting bus wanker but I am a lodging road walker (I can't even afford the stupid bus)..how sad is that! There is always someone more wankery than you..chin up :) xx
ReplyDeleteThats the spirit BW - chin up and carry on! Things could be better, but they could be infinately worse, so pick yourself up, dust yourself down, and start all over again! You could always play "reasons to be cheerful" by Ian Drury xxxx
ReplyDeleteOh the dreaded can't-move-cat-on-lap situation. So nice, yet so frustrating!
ReplyDeleteHope you're feeling better now - have you heard anything more about work? Good on you for putting a limit on the moping, wish I could have that sort of strength! Big hugs xx
ReplyDeleteGood for you to recognize the good - we have to remember sometimes that "things could be a lot worse" but that is tough when whatever it is affects you in that moment. Loving the bus wanker comment too...another blessing in disguise I guess. Also, totes had the cat on lap need the loo issue last night - she just looked so damn comfortable - husband thinks I am mad.
ReplyDeleteTake Care
Clare
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